Sometimes all I want to say is: Fuck you depression!

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This article will talk about how depression may affect you to a point that, sometimes, all you want to say is fuck you, depression. 

Sometimes all I want to say is: Fuck you, depression! 

Sometimes, when you are depressed, all you want to say is fuck you, depression! Depression managed to change your whole life completely. It can turn it inside out. It will make the happiest person turn into the most isolated one.

You can feel all the ways your life has been changed since you got depressed, and you may not like how your life is at the moment. But depression is not a choice. It is not something you can just wake up from one day and feel better from it.

Depression is something that takes over who you are in the deepest sense of the word. It takes away your passions, desires, and purposes. When you are depressed you may feel the world around you has turned black and white, and you have no idea how to put some color back into it.

Sometimes depression will make you so angry that all you want to do is scream: fuck you, depression! You want to say that for all the things it has taken away from you. The joy of a simple summer’s day, the laughter of when you are with friends. You want all that back. 

But you can also be enraged by all that depression brought you. The constant sadness, the fear that the worse will happen, the constant worry in your mind. You may be so angry at how difficult it is to do the simplest of things, such as getting out of bed, getting dressed, and going to work.

Those three steps that you used to do every single day of your life, quickly, without ever giving them a second thought, nowadays become a challenge. Depression can make it impossible for you to get out of bed at times. 

You can feel so drained, that you just can’t move. And then, at some point, you decide to look for professional help. And then the medication, and therapy begin. Those can have an impact on your state, but depression is a challenging enemy.

Finding the right medication can take some time. Understanding your emotions through therapy will not happen from one moment to the next. In that, you are there, still in pain, still angry, still wishing you could say: fuck you, depression, and just walk away from it.

One of the hardest parts of depression maybe how we lose our autonomy, our ability to say if we want something or not. We become this shell of our former selves, and depression starts to feed on us. You don’t have a say in it. Depression will do what it wants with you.

It will make it impossible for you to follow through on a conversation. You will feel like you can’t focus on any of it. And you lose track of what your friends are saying. You will also not have any energy to go out with them as you did before. And because of that, depression may also take away the people you love.

Little by little you distance yourself, and if they don’t know, or understand what is going on, they can just assume you are not wanting to be around them. And they may, eventually, drift away. But you can do something about this.

Depression doesn’t leave a lot of space for you to do things. But in some situations, it still leaves you with a little of your autonomy. And this is one of those. Sharing with your friends and loved ones what you have been going through maybe a way for you to let them know that they should keep close, even if sometimes it feels like you are pushing them away.

This, in the same way as looking for treatment, are the possible ways we can begin to try to escape depression. Sure saying fuck you, depression will have its moments. Visualizing depression, and directing all your anger towards it can be a way of healing as well.

But you need a strong army to fight this battle. And in need, you need your loved ones, the professional help, and the person that you miss being that is still inside you somewhere just hoping to come out again.

What is depression?

Depression is a mental health condition that can cause a person to experience intense sadness. But not only that, it can cause the person to lose interest in everything, even what they used to love. It usually makes the person feel like they have no energy left, and they are constantly fatigued.

It can make it hard for you to focus, so sometimes even having a conversation can be hard. Aside from that, when you are depressed, you can feel hopeless, helpless, empty, and like you lost the purpose in your life. 

Depression will make your sleeping and eating patterns change. Cause you feel more irritable, and guilty. Aside from that, for various reasons, it makes you isolate yourself from others. It will also make your self-esteem, and sense of self-worth go down. 

When you are depressed, you tend to feel more pain and headaches. And you can sometimes develop self-harm behaviors, and in some cases, people can even have thoughts of death, and suicidal thoughts.

It is important to keep in mind that these are the most common symptoms of depression, but each person may feel it in their particular way. And the intensity of the symptoms can vary from one person to the next. 

But for a person to be considered depressed, they should be experiencing some of these symptoms for more than two weeks.

Frequently Asked Questions (FAQ): Why sometimes all I want to say is fuck you, depression? 

What are the types of depression? 

Depression can happen in four forms. It can be mild, moderate, major, and persistent depression. The first form, as the name says, is one in which the person experiences mild symptoms, which usually go on for a short period, which makes it harder to diagnose. But to treat mild depression people will often need to just change their lifestyle.

Moderate depression is one in which the person begins to feel the effects of the condition in their lives, and it will go on for longer. To treat it, the person will often need to go to therapy, and some people will also need medication.

Major depression, which is also known as clinical depression, is the most intense form of depression and can go on for longer. When a person is going through major depression, they can find it impossible to do the simplest things, such as getting out of bed. 

Aside from the common symptoms of depression, major depression can cause the person to have hallucinations, and even become delusional at times. To treat this condition, people will often need to go through a joint treatment with a psychiatrist, and therapy.

Finally, persistent depression is one in which the person will experience episodes that can go on for as long as five years. Through this period, the person will experience swings between mild and major depression, and to cope with those they will most likely need medication and therapy.

What are the ways to cope with depression? 

People can cope with depression in various ways, but one of the most important things is that you are cared for by a professional. Having a therapist that will help you understand your emotions, can be important. Aside from that, it can be helpful for you to take medication when it is needed to manage your depressive symptoms.

Aside from that, there are other ways you can cope with depression. You may do so by trying to keep a healthy lifestyle, which means you should care for your eating and sleeping habits which will help you improve your energy levels. Exercising may also be important to help improve your mood.

Being around people that are supportive of you may also help you get your mind off of those negative thoughts that depression brings. You should also try to do things that will help you experience some positive emotions, such as new hobbies, or activities.

You can try to do some volunteer work, or begin gardening. Those can help you feel better, and even get a sense of accomplishment.

What are antidepressants? 

Antidepressants are a medication people take when they are going through a depressive episode, or even when they are going through other forms of mental health issues. 

But nowadays there are many forms of antidepressants. The most commonly prescribed nowadays are Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) because they usually have fewer side effects, such as Citalopram.

One form of antidepressants that work similarly to SSRIs is the Serotonin-noradrenaline reuptake inhibitors (SNRIs) but those were created to be more effective than SSRIs. An example of SNRIs is venlafaxine.

Noradrenaline and specific serotonergic antidepressants (NASSAs) are a form of antidepressants that are often recommended for people that can’t take SSRIs. Those will often have stronger side effects. An example of it is mirtazapine.

There are also older forms of antidepressants such as tricyclic antidepressants (TCAs), which can be recommended to people with major depression that are resistant to other medications. An example of it is amitriptyline. 

In the same way, Serotonin antagonists and reuptake inhibitors (SARIs) are a form of antidepressants that can be prescribed when other forms haven’t worked. An example of it is trazodone. 

There are Monoamine oxidase inhibitors (MAOIs) that are an older type of antidepressant. It has a lot of serious side effects. The most known example of it is tranylcypromine.

Does depression have a cure? 

No, depression doesn’t have a cure. Rather than that, mental health professionals will say that depression will go into remission, which means you will begin to have better control of your emotions and will regain interest in things, and feel joy once again.

What you need to remember, as you go into remission, is that you should keep caring for your mental health, since it will be the best way for you to prevent a possible relapse in the future.

What are suicidal thoughts?

Suicidal thoughts are ones in which the person will think about ending their lives. It can happen in two manners, a more passive way, in which the person will have fleeting thoughts on the matter, but not an actual plan around it.

Or it can happen in a more active way, in which the person will think of how, when, and where they would do it.

Conclusion 

This article showed how depression has such a deep impact on people that sometimes all they want to say is fuck you, depression.

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References

https://www.vice.com/en/article/exq43w/you-dont-know-what-depression-is-until-it-gets-you-573

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